Without You

I sit alone by the window wondering of the future
What is to come?
What to expect?
Constantly questioning the decisions I've made
How do I know I'm right?
What if I'm wrong?
My mind is in a constant state of chaos as I try to find some peace in reality
Random thoughts drift in and out of my mind
Thoughts from the deepest troughs of my heart and mind
Thinking back over the past
There's so much I wish I could change
And so much I wish I could relive
No matter how many times I think of these thoughts one thing is for sure
I always seem to believe my life would have been so much better with out you
I wonder, if I wish it hard enough, long enough, consistently enough..
Would you disappear?
Could I erase my thoughts of you?
Would you just not exist?
Would I still be the same person if I hadn't met you?
Would I be better, or worst... or here at all?
How could someone be joyous when they know they are the source of someone elses agony
What crime have I committed against you, for you to hate me so
There is no adjective derogatory or powerful enough to describe you
The way your spirit has possessed me so
You haunt my dreams and I see your face in the most random spaces
You live and you haunt at the same time
You live and you haunt
How can time heal me from your curse
When you haven't let me go

i feel ya pain. felt like this thru the many months of me tryna get ova my ex....good post

Very good post. I'm goin thru a situation now & know exactly what u mean...